I met a boy a few weeks after I turned nineteen.
He reminded me of art, beautiful in the most unacceptable ways. His lips big, nose round, eyes dark, and his skin blended into the night sky.
I had been let down countless times by tall boys with blue eyes and white smiles. They told me I was beautiful while they kissed me, making promises they couldn’t keep.
But when I saw Silas I felt a pull at my soul. I wanted to watch him, touch him, hear the thoughts that spiraled in his head.
He was the boy that no one noticed was beautiful. But I couldn’t take my eyes off him.
I could feel his eyes on me too.
Watching me as a little white crystal sizzled under my tongue.
“What does it feel like?”
His lips curved up slightly.
“Kind of like magic”, he said. His voice was rough, but kind. A lisp snuck through the gap in his teeth, hardly noticeable.
He could see the doubt in my eyes, “you’ll like it, I promise.”
“Let’s go outside”, Laura tugged at my arm, “you’ll want to see the sun, trust me.”
We wandered out into the land of hippies. The most care free souls the world had to offer. I wanted to belong here, wanted to let go. But I had a mind that ran with worry and couldn’t be stopped.
We climbed up her old pathfinder like a mountain, looking out at the bright colors that made up our scenery.
She grabbed my hand, “we’re just gonna lay here. Watch the sky. Watch it change.”
We watched for what seemed like an hour, and I saw nothing different. The sky was still blue and the trees were still green.
I sat up, “shouldn’t I feel something by now?”
And just as my words left my mouth I was struck by the colors. Could feel them melt into my skin. The sky seemed endless and the trees were alive.
And the world around me shifted into a place without worry.
“Your pupils are huge!”
I faced Laura and she was looking at me like it was the first time she had seen me.
“How do you feel?” I felt his voice behind me, warm, creeping up the back of my neck.
“Amazing”, my voice was light, bouncing from the curve of my smile, “but very warm.”
In fact, I felt the warmest I had ever felt in my life.
His eyes looked at me with worry, but I was mesmerized by his beauty.
“She’s really sweating.. Maybe we should get her some ice”, I heard Laura’s voice like a distant echo.
All I saw was Silas.
And then he touched me, leading me down from the mountain I had climbed. His touch felt like I found love for the first time.
“Sit down in the shade”, he said softly in my ear, “I’ll get you something cold.”
I ran my hands up and down my arms, fascinated by how I could feel the life running through my own body.
And then a cooling sensation swept over me.
“That feels nice”, I murmured.
I looked up and saw Laura, and I knew she was seeing it too; the world through my eyes.
“It’s beautiful”, her voice escaping in bubbles that floated up to the sky.
“I want to lay down”, I heard her say.
I found my balance and stood up, entering our tent that was as big as a castle.
Then the film started rolling. Everything seemed clearer, crisper, like I was watching it through a tv screen.
I heard music in the outskirts of my mind and I knew the movie had just started.
What I didn’t know at the time was that it would continue for much longer than the effects of the magic crystal.
Hours later we had ventured down to the festival. The only thing I felt was a slight buzzing through my body. I had experienced magic for the first time.